This quote is it in a nutshell.
It’s that moment where I reflect on the challenge as a whole. My coworkers asked how it was going today, and interestingly enough I realized that 30 days had gone by and they went by a LOT faster than I thought they would. The challenge has gone well, very well I think. I surprised myself in how competitive I have been throughout this month – I really do/did want to win! I don’t know if I’ll pull it off in the end – we have until Monday to accumulate a possible 30 bonus points. I may only grab 10 of those points and my closest competitor, er uh, participant, will like grab at least that.
Here’s what I’ve taken from this challenge:
- Awareness of the amount of sugar that is in our food in this country (and likely else where). There are just some things that DO NOT need sugar. Peanut butter for example (keep your “that’s not paleo” to yourself – it’s delicious). Sausage – does that really need sugar?
- Grains are EVERYWHERE. I think there’s an evil grain alien plot to take over the world. It’s just empty calories, really.
- Speaking of empty calories – I’m much more apt to take a pause before I eat something that’s less than fuel knowing that it won’t really satisfy the need my body has in that moment. However – I miss ice cream and will be having some this weekend. BAM! So kiss it.
- Creative intentional exercise! Maintaining points through out the challenge I have had to get creative about exercise every day – especially when I’m working 12 hour shifts. Stair climbs, walks around the hospital campus, too much foam rolling, yoga in the middle of my office, you name it!
- Writing every day has been much more enjoyable than I may have initially imagined. My creative mind is just flowing with ideas! It has been really awesome to be reacquainted with this habit of mine. I have missed writing.
Here’s something I didn’t realize would happen: While I’ve struggled with my weight throughout life, attempting to look a certain way, fit in to a certain size, have the scale show a particular number, etc – I’ve realized that my happiness is not wrapped up in a number or an exterior appearance. When I’m fighting with an image I have in my head I’m missing the point entirely by not accepting myself unconditionally. It’s a long process to recondition my mind and I have to practice this daily or it will never go away.
So, I had to get on the scale at work today for our annual Health Risk Assessment (height, weight, lipid, glucose panel…). If you remember – my bad habit that I was giving up for this challenge was NOT to get on the scale unless required to for doctor’s visits. I haven’t been on a scale in over a month. Today I contemplated covering my eyes so that I didn’t look, but I was curious. Had the number changed while on this challenge? How would that number make me feel?
Nothing changed. I wasn’t attached to that number I saw, so I wasn’t excited or disappointed. I felt the same walking off the scale as I did walking on to it. I’m the exact same number on that scale that I was when I started (or at least really close to it). I didn’t think I’d loose weight honestly. #bruteyogi and I have been lifting heavy for 2+ months now and doing much less in terms of metcons. I’d expect my strength to increase along with my muscle mass. It seems as thought that theory is true. I’ll post pre-challenge pictures at the end along with the final challenge photo and you can see the changes for yourself. But what is not visible in those pictures is how I feel. I am stronger than I’ve ever been. My body feels good. I care less about those numbers (pant size, scale, etc) – I care more about the fact that my clothes are snugger in my shoulders, biceps, quads and ass because my muscles are growing. That’s what I like to feel. I like to feel strong, I like to be strong – I am strong.
Today’s Total: 10
We’re off to the Mid Atlantic CrossFit Regionals in the morning!